so lets face it, qariana is not emo. one thing for sure. so HERE is the rainbow to show you people that, i still enjoy my life even if im suffering silently behind every doors.
courtesy of yuenleng.(:
so here it goes, my day in my life. nothing much, just that i had lunch with huney izdi in sch, i told her about my life basically and i told her that maybe i think i choose the wrong course for myself. so yeah,she said something about dropping the course and retake a diff course next year. which i think, i dont want to, and still enduring and continue to strive even better. its all up to me now.
but no matter what even shit knot, I AINT GONNA GIVE UP, no way.!
so i had kind of fun, really sleepy AS HELL when i reach school, i look like a disgusting zombie with eyebags and all cause i lost my foundation. which is sucks. and i have to buy a new one. ahha. and my girly gang told me what they think about the situation now.they said that the mamat with car in my class syok at me. WHICH I THINK IS TOTALLY INSANE!
im not over reacting ok, im not so work out, its just that, it wont happen, its just your imgination girls! maybe it is his nature in being so kind to sent PEOPLE to their houses after school with their car. so NO BIG DEAL. am i right?
and i told fatin about this and she said that " okay pe dok, dier 23 tahun suit untuk kau, ade kerete, thinking pun dah matured" alurmak beb, aku tak macam kau sehy, im not looking for older guys and im not looking for youngers guys, maybe kau cakap betol luh, i shud get older guys, tapi its not my time yet uh beb!! ahha. takmo uh. tak nak aku.
ahaha. so thats settle. okay? done. end my story.
i read haidah blog just now. i think she is facing real massive problems. i wish i could help her all the strength i have. JUST HOLD ON HAIDAH DEAREST!
both of us share almost everything, even include our deepest secrets and feelings. and that means my current feelings about my OLD FLAME AND SPARKS. i hate it when she get to guess my feelings about that situation so ACCURATELY!
gaga twins mahhh. what to do. ahha.
i love her no matter what. ok, im not lass. ahha. shes the one i told almost everything about. when i broke up and everything, its like shes the ocean and im the waterfall. i throw and drown my rainy sorrows and happiness to her. all of it. so me and her, theres basically NOTHING to hide. i love her and syah to death.
about the OLD FLAMES AND SPARKS. (gosh, bet haidah is reading this. or even fatin. or even yad. or even syah, or even...OH I DONT KNOW!!) it is so weird. i thought it is sooo over. i mean. okay, the weird part is that, when im longing to see that someone or somebody, they will show up eventually. either, they will text me or msn with me or something. so i got some connection with faith and destiny. -i dont even understand what the heck im talking about- its like, i miss them and they show up and atleast i get to release my "miss-you-so-much" feelings to them.after one relationship, it is hard for me to get another one, because to me, being in a relationship, theres must me ups and downs and long lasting, if its not. WHATS THE POINT OF HAVING A FALSE HOPE RELATIONSHIP AND WASTE TIME WHILE YOU CAN WAIT AND SEARCH SOMEONE BETTER.
ahha. thats what i think, and thats what i am. love is not a spare change you can easily share and give.
(:
and after that one relationship broken (since i had only one, SEE HOW truly amazing i am) the men that i met, tends to disappear along the way.either they went to serve their NS (shahfiq) or they run away from home (elfee) or they tend to be a dickhead when they get bike license (hafiz) or they simply..disappear in thin air (yanis), so...........hmmm. faith and destiny is telling me something. that i shall wait and wait and if i had enough of waiting i search the ground for that prince goofy is the new handsome boy.(: so no rush if these guys dissappear. theres always more. (:
or like what haidah says "LETS NATURE TAKE ITS COURSE. when that someone came running back to you again, that will be your true love. really. just go with the flow." thanks huney love. hmm, nature. true love. thats so much to digest. ahha. bet his sibling hates me now.
to make matter short. i just want to tell you (you, you, you, you, you, him, that guy, there, that one luh, yang tu luh, yang kat sane tuu, that one!! alurmak ehh!)
that i miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss you.
(hint: count)
thats all.
the end.
peace yall.
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