today was so hectic. for crying out loud, why isnt there any MALAY girls in my class.
aku bukan nye alright sangat ngn budak2 cine. dah lah diorg penting kan diri sendiri, abeh tolong pun tak nak. ge mati uh, org makan babi. benci siol.
it been awhile that i do my maths and physics. and basically that is the only subjects and so be learn thoroughly in this course. so i was struggling abit and no one seems to help me. that was so irritating. i mean, im struggling here and no one seems to bother. when people ask nicely they tend to teach without any sincerity. what the fuck sia. i mean, this is crazy. i was left alone there for about 10 mins struggling ONE questions and no one is helping. WHAT THE FUCK.
I hate it. really. and for the fuck's sake, i dont know what the fuck am i doing in this course. i cen even do something about designing. WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME DAMNIT. nana is abimbo afterall. thank you abang, you see me thru quite clearly.
i was so fed up that i wrote about them in my nick in msn. and well, alot of the people who really cares ask me WHAT HAPPEN.
aqil ask me. farid ask me. fatin ask me. syaz ask me.
thank you guys, for the heads up. and yeah, i did tell them about my shits in school and how im struggling in my class. they said to chill. and maybe i want to go study with fatin and aqil. really, im rusty like a nail being drop into a cup of water for a long time.
i hate myself for this. now i really think that im soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
lost behind.
bet you, i'll be the last in class. for. everything.
bet you that.
i hate myself. and guess what??!
im not being very patience enough with myself, i keep on doing this moody face of mine.. i just cant help it. i feel like:
seekor kerbau yang dicocok di hidung.
if i get this right.
really. why must go and foloow this group to almost everywhere, better to me to feel REAL EMO than to mix around whom i dont like. what the heck.
syaz ask me to go republic poly and transfer there.
what the hell, i dont know about that, i mean..my notebook is full of ngee ann shits and i cant just go there and start new. i feel like an asshole right now. not really know what to do. this i week 2 now. i got about 6 more weeks to exam. and i wasted my first 2 weeks with nothing. this is frustrating.
and my intermet connection is having problem which is stupid.
im having trouble with uploading pictures in the facebook and i cant log in to facebook and i cant see my blog. i even have trouble to go to blogger. GOSH, I ALMOST HAVE TROUBLE TO GO TO EVERYWHERE.
why am i doing this. for god's sake. hazman, mimi, izdi, haiqal can make it to year two. i bet i can.
farid, faiz can make it to year three and even had graduate, that means i can too.
SO, i just need to focus real hard and no more hanky panky smanky.
I WILL GRADUATE MY DIPLOMA. NO MATTER WHAT.
I WILL.
MARK THAT WORDS.
