i was having a larger of life, really..with work..shopping..work..shopping..work..and suddenly,reality smacked right at my face.
hafidz sms and call me and blablabla..blablahblahh..
it was really a sudden shock. seriously! im a junkie for not memorising phone numbers and obviously i cant remember his. nor that i can remember my dads and nazrees phone number. so with my poker face, i answered,"WHO IS THIS?" how could i not notice the very same voice! damn you nana!! haha. i was technically on my way to the toilet with my urgent bladder thats about to ripped its way out when he called. and guess what?! after hearing his voice, the urgentness to run to the loo just simply DISSAPEARED. how cool. hahahahah! really, reality check for me. thank you.
so we meetup after my work and at the void deck under my block..the very same venue where he ask me to be his girl..how romantic huh?haha!
the truth is i cant bear to look at his face, its a total saddening thing.really, like history is repeating itself. nearly cried, but i held up. he asked me to punch him, gosh! how ive always wanted 3 months ago to do that. i wouldnot want to do that NOW..really. what for anyway? ive totally forget about the he-dumping-me thing and i love my single life, and shopping is awesome and all and why i should punch him for? what worth do i get from that?
thing is, i really want him back. for god sake, i really do. after all, this is a cliche. dont you think?
"cant forget your first lover.."shits..haha.
i really do want him back for crying out loud! this dude i share my happy,silly,things with for a year...and all i want back is him. (sorry for the sudden sentimental..hahahaha)
BUT, IM HORRIBLY SCARED. SCARED if this time it fails and scared ive made the wrong choice. boo to nana! shits heads. ahhhhhh, lets leave that to THAT.
then i sms him, and he didnt reply..how much much much depressing is that??!
mau anchingggg!!(with nazri stupid face and voice)
yeap,now i really need ciggs. booohooohooo...
